I am not Ashamed

Jesus Freak-n.

Someone who displays an unusual or embarrassing amount of enthusiasm for Jesus.


Religion in society is deemed almost taboo to talk about in certain places here in American Society. School and the work place, are the best examples. To talk about ones religion openly in these public places, just seems to open a can of worms. So for the most part the majority just refuses to talk them and avoids the subject fervently.  Why are we afraid of the controversy? Why are we ashamed to say I believe in Christ? Why should I be ashamed to talk about my faith in Jesus? This is what I believe. I don’t want to shove my beliefs down your throat like some Christians, but if you were to ask me about it, I would gladly share my views. I also know many refuse to believe there could be a God if there is so much evil and suffering in the world. All I can say to that is that God gave mankind the freedom of choice, and it is human choices that has led the world to the place it is now. Now I know some Christians give my religion a bad taste in your mouth. You know who I am talking about the bible thumping, your going to hell unless you repent, screaming in your face “Christians.”  I do not stand with them, I strive to love like Jesus loved. NO I am no where near perfect, and yes I am sinner and I struggle with my demons daily, but that doesn’t change my faith or belief. My personal belief is that we are here to love each other and help others when you can and sometimes when you think you really can’t. I don’t condemn people for who they love, or the things they have done. If that is the way the good Lord made you, so be it. I have no place to judge another, for I am not the judge. I am not afraid and I am not ashamed to say I am a Christian.



Never Been Kissed

No this is not a post about the Drew Barrymore movie. (though i do enjoy that movie) This post is a little more personal to me. A kiss is such a big moment in everyone’s life, it’s the step in the direction of growing up, meeting someone you care about or at least attracted to, and sharing of the first kiss. Most people have had the first kiss by the time they are 16 some a little later, but majority before they reach the age of 20. But I am an anomaly. I am 25 years old and a few months I will be 26 and I have Never Been Kissed. The First question I get is Are you saving yourself for Religious reasons? or maybe for your wedding? The answer to both of those is no. Cause I know some people don’t kiss or even hug until after they are married which in my opinion is just CRAZY. I am


Have been (obviously). That’s why I have never been kissed, I have never so much as held a hand of a boy who I wasn’t related to. So why am I writing this post? Do I just want people to feel bad for me? Again the answer is NO. I don’t care if you feel bad for me, or just sorry for me. I want to raise some awareness, that not everyone shares the same life experiences and you shouldn’t assume things about people. That is the worst thing I’ve experienced especially in some college classes, they want you to relate things to your first relationship or your first kiss, well I’m sorry to burst that bubble but I have nothing to draw on for that, and I won’t lie it hurts when people get that look in their eyes cause they feel sorry for me. Or that they don’t understand how “someone as great as me” or  “as sweet as me” has never been asked out or dated. I have also been assumed as gay since I’ve never had a boyfriend, which I can assure I am not, cause girls don’t float my boat that way. I have also been accused of having too high of standards, I just know for me is that the purpose of dating is to find someone to spend the rest of your life with, and if that means I don’t waste time with fantasies or boys who just want one thing, well that is that and I am who I am.  I am a bit of a weirdo, who would rather be home reading a book or watching a Disney movie then going out to a party. I would rather find out when the next Marvel movie is coming out, or playing Sims. To be honest (again) generally at a party I make friends with the pets first. I would be lying if I said I wasn’t lonely, or I wish I didn’t wish to be like everyone else and be able to casually date. I go through fits of sadness, and depression, and I wonder what is wrong with me? Wonder why I never get asked out. I wonder if anyone else is like me out there. I feel alone and that no one shares this experience with me. So this leads me to believe that I might become the next inspiration for the next 40 year old virgin movie.


Beauty and the Beast Revisited

So I wrote a post earlier this year about the new Beauty and the Beast movie coming out and how excited I am about it. There is a new controversy about one of the characters in the movie that is causing many to say they won’t be going to see it now with the new information.


LeFou. The Goofy sidekick to Gaston from the original Disney cartoon. Well apparently he has feeling for Gaston, and the fact that this Disney character might be gay is stirring quiet the uproar. Let’s be honest for a moment, to think that even in the cartoon movie LeFou was probably a little gay, I mean he starts singing about how great Gaston is, and how everybody wishes to be just like him. I mean what straight guy starts singing to his male friend about how great he is? I mean I watch ALOT of movies and I cannot think of a single one. So why this comes as a surprise to some people is a little shocking. Some even have been saying don’t take you kids to this movie because there is a gay man in it. This is ridiculous. There are gay people everywhere, schools, public places, and even churches(if it is like it should be) and you can’t shield your child from everything that you deem as inappropriate, what you can do is to prepare them for the outside world. Teach them good relationship values, and let your children decide for themselves what is right for them. Just because it is a lifestyle you don’t approve of doesn’t make it wrong, it’s just not for you. Some of the best people I have met are gay, though it is not a lifestyle I choose, I do not condemn them for their choice. I love them, and boycotting this film will do nothing to change it or the film industry.lefou9f-1-web


Serious or Not?

I have been debating on writing a serious post or not. Cause i know blogs are suppose to be whre you put your opinions but with the way most of social media is today I am afraid of some sort of backlash for my opinion. I know very few people actually look at this blog so i should just go ahead and say what i feel, but this does not help the underlying fear of putting my thoughts and opinions out there bare like an online dairy. Do i really want to the world to know what I’m feeling? Or what I truly think? Should i stay with light fluff pieces that will never get any real attention?


Part of me wants to stand out and get noticed and other says stay were you are don’t do anything that could potential get you hurt.  I am always doing the safer thing. I don’t take chances. Maybe I should just say what I’m thinking, and state my opinions and let the chips fall were they may… I need think on it some more.